Monday, February 21, 2011

Moon's Fault

I can't believe Glee's S2E13 tells a lot about cheating. It's not like Glee is all about love and boyfriends and girlfriends, but those part of the whole story makes it really funny to watch. Oh my gosh - they're almost like Hollywood -- exchanging partners.. :-O And about Sam..poor Sammy...you know what? If it was a battle between you and Finn, I don't care - I'd choose you damn it.

I'm currently listening to The Script's "For The First Time". Loved this one like i loved John Mayer's "Slow Dancing In A Burning Room". Try check it out. The Script brings me a lotta thoughts, good and bad, happy and sad; I'd definitely play em on the car for driving. It's a good one for chillin out alone. Talking about thoughts, some days ago when the moon was so beautiful, I thought about so many memories..my childhood, some turning points of life, etc. When you're a child you don't have thoughts and problems like mine right now; you just wanna play and eat all the sweets you can handle; look forward to special occasions and events; fight or cry over things. I was a picture-taking-hater back in my stupid-little-girl years. In school, photographers would hate me for eating too much of their time before they can get one stupid picture done. My rule: Mom has to be in that picture too. Oh god that's just so friggin lame. :-O But it's true, I'd turn around and stuff, cry out loud and not stop until my ID pic is an ugly me crying like hell. Guess it tells how picture-addict I am right now. There was a time mom was gonna take a pic of me and my sis near the karaoke and my sister already stood there smiling like the angel that she is. Me? I forced myself to stand up beside her with my x( face not realizing I was already tearing the lyrics apart..poor little paper. :-O I, Amanda, on behalf of Leslie, is guilty of being the ugly child, the bad girl, the black sheep.

When I spent 20 days in the hospital for being ill, I realized how much love my family has for me. My sister, I've seen her love, not just felt it; my pop, who comes home to the hospital reporting for duty (lol-because it was our temporary home) plus the money he shelled out for my hospital bills; my mom, especially, for being there all the time to share my anxiety and take care of me. That was probably the worst experience I've had in my existence.

The moon also reminded me of Bliss, how i miss the place and the friends; Canigao Island, the sweet and serene beach and the fireflies at night..the silence where you can only hear waves crashing; Malapasqua, the paradise, the summer sunshine! The moon reminded me of me, and the big change I've been in in the last couple'a years. And I feel good about it, somehow. I wouldn't have been me now without the things that happened before. But there are also things you don't wanna remember.. (to be continued..)