The Grudge

It kind of frustrated me the very moment it rang to my ears.

I was right. He’s not over it. He just can’t get over it.

I thought at first I could just ignore it. I mean, you know, we kind of talked about it already and I assumed everything was patched up. Well, the case isn’t closed at all, and it will never be unless he opens up his mind and work through his own thinking.

Oh please, everybody tries to move the hell on. Why can’t he do it? It sucks, right, it hurts like shit, absolutely. But in this stupid life which happens to be unfair sometimes, we just gotta help ourselves too. You can’t force the things you can’t control. If you want to be happy, focus on those things you can control, and the first on the list is your own way of thinking. Yourself, your actions.

He probably knows it’s wrong to demand on such things from my mother. And I ain’t tryina back her up, I just wanna put an end to this. He can’t be too demanding of things just because she has done him wrong. It’s just not right that he now uses her flaws to hurt her even more. There were reasons behind every little detail of their story, and the problem isn’t with who did the good nor who did the bad, but with who’s willing to fully get himself up off the mud.

He can’t go on living his life in paranoia. It wouldn’t be healthy, not for them both and for that marriage. Yes, it must have been really hard for him to forget how much hurt it caused him. It must have been really hard to accept the reality that the woman he loved would do such thing. But hey, shit happens. In this life, there is no exception. Everybody gets fucked up in so many different ways. I can perhaps understand the fact that the aftermath is a long and hard process. But I don’t understand why he wants to cause them both stress by demanding specific things and controlling her. I mean we can’t change things anymore, the only thing they can both do is do better, the second time around. Just because she has done a huge mistake doesn’t mean he didn’t.

I can feel that he has not accepted these things yet. There is no forgiveness at all. Well it’s pretty hard I know, but unless he’s sure of it, he can compose himself and try to think of a way to help himself stop make everything worse.